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Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Remember



I remember that when it happened it reminded me
of the time when I swallowed a mouthful of sea water.
It left a bitterness that coated my tongue.
 It made my eyes water and my head spin.
 I remember wondering how this could happen with you,
 the person that made me feel like I could float on clouds, walk on water, move mountains.
 I remember feeling as if I was drowning when I felt I should be flying.
Why did it have to be you?

Copyright © 2016 Sydney Fromm

Monday, September 5, 2016

A Longing



Copyright © 2016 Sydney Fromm

A Longing:



Some nights I’m happy
Most nights I’m not
I dream of fairy lights illuminating
an apartment on a busy street in
London, or Paris, or Munich, or Dublin.
I dream of a boy who wraps his body around mine.
I dream of hot tea on rainy afternoons.
I dream of writing, and of painting, and of loving.
I dream of a life I know I can’t have.
I dream of color when my world feels black and white.
I dream of a vivid life, when mine feels like it is just fading.
I dream.
 

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Blithe & Bonny

Hey guys!

I wanted to tell you about the online magazine that I've been writing for! It's all about lady positivity and its call Blithe & Bonny. You can find us at www.blithebonnies.com!

Go check us out!


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Monday, May 9, 2016

Updates!

Hello all,

Since my last update I have graduated College and completed my student teaching, which is similar to an internship. I have moved to Las Vegas,  Nevada and accepted a teaching position at Las Vegas High School, which is where I did my student teaching.

I loved my time as a student teacher. I learned so much from me mentor teacher and from the other teachers in the English department. I came to love all my students so much that it surprised me how invested in their learning I became.

I was able to plan and create and teach my very own unit in the classroom. I am forever grateful for this experience and all that it prepared me for. I had the best time student teaching and I can't wait for my first year as a certified teacher with my own classroom.

In addition to moving to Las Vegas I have started watching Game of Thrones with my roommate! There are outrageous characters and magnificent story lines. We've watched the first two and a half seasons over this weekend. We are staying up all night to get as far into the series as we can! We're having a good old tv marathon!

I have also set a date to go through the temple to receive my endowments. I will be going back to Rexburg in July to walk in Graduation and that is when I will go through the temple.

Overall in the past few months I have made several "adult" decisions and it kind of terrifies me. I am really glad to be done with college and to be moving on to the next stage of life, but naturally I am terrified of moving on and leaving my childhood behind.

And, I get to see Pippin in 5 days!

I'm not sure if you know about Pippin. He is the cat that my sister was fostering last summer that I adopted! He will be a year old next week! I can't wait to see him! My mom is bring him down with all my other stuff that she is bringing down from the house.

Now your pretty much updated!

Sydney 

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Symbolism in Charlotte Perkins Gilman's The Yellow Wallpaper.

I wanted to share a paper I recently wrote for my American Literature class. I had the help of my wonderfully patient parents and my amazing friend Melanie! Thanks for muddling through my rough drafts and not being afraid to tell me when something sucked. Here it is.



One specific device that helps create a successful story is symbolism. Symbolism can either make or break an author’s attempt to convey their tale. Like many authors before her, Charlotte Perkins Gilman effectively uses symbolism in her story, The Yellow Wallpaper; in fact, many of the most gripping parts of The Yellow Wallpaper are overflowing with symbolism. Gilman’s story opens with a couple and their new baby moving into a home for the summer. The wife narrates the story; and the first appearance of the use of symbolism is found in her description of the gardens behind the house. She describes to the reader the green beauty of the gardens and contrasting dilapidated greenhouses. These visuals relate to the narrator as she is also as a new green bud that is slowly trying to overgrow the skeleton of the old greenhouses. The old, shambling, broken-down greenhouses represent the denial of growth by her husband, the social standards of the time, and the expectations that both have of her.
The second bit of symbolism that the narrator presents is revealed when she tells the readers what room her husband insists they stay in. While there are many beautiful, airy, and comfortable rooms downstairs in the house John, the narrator’s husband, insists they stay in the upstairs nursery. Typically when one thinks of a nursery, they think of a happy, light, airy room filled with happiness and laughter. However this nursery is the exact opposite. There is a bed bolted to the floor, the wallpaper is peeling off, and the windows are barred. The rather dismal nursery and John’s use of phrases such as “blessed little goose” (Gilman 488), “his darling and his comfort”, and “little girl” (Gilman 491), depict the juvenile treatment of the narrator. She is not allowed to make her own decisions, and any input on her illness is laughed at by her husband. This is where her confinement starts to become clear before the reader’s eyes. Not only is the narrator subjected to live in a nursery, but she has to stay in a nursery that has barred windows. These barred windows represent her imprisonment. This prison could be the literal prison that is the house or the prison of the narrator’s mind. However, the message is quite clear--our narrator is imprisoned one way or the other.
In this prison of a room, the narrator describes her bed. She calls it the “great immovable bed”(Gilman 409), for it is nailed to the floor. This could be symbolism for her marriage, depicting it as a repressed relationship. There is hardly any affection shown between John and the narrator, other than John’s little pet names for her. John is rarely at the house with the narrator, therefore affecting their relationship as well as the narrator’s recovery. It is mentioned that John usually sleeps in a different room downstairs. However when the couple does share the bed, John never notices the narrator’s trouble sleeping. John’s apathetic behavior towards the narrator, and his obliviousness could factor into the narrator’s decline in mental health as well as her growing obsession with the wallpaper. Combine the problems in her marriage with the fact that John does not allow her to receive visitors other than their nurse Mary and his sister Jennie, the narrator only has herself for company and this makes for a rather lonely life. It has been said that it takes two to make a marriage. In this couple’s case, the relationship and marriage is repressed and it does not seem to grow or move, just as the bed is bolted to the floor.
Perhaps the most impressive use of symbolism that Gilman uses is with the wall paper itself. There are several elements to the wallpaper and how Gilman uses it in symbolism. First is the color of the wallpaper. It is described as a sickly, ghastly, yellowish orange color. This is referencing the narrator’s illness. Regardless of whether she is truly ill or not, this coloring of the wallpaper matches that of the sickness, or perhaps madness, that has come over her. Second is the pattern of the wallpaper. The paper starts out as “dull enough to confuse the eye in following, pronounced enough to constantly irritate and provoke study” (Gilman 487) and then progresses to the narrator crediting her “recovery” to the wallpaper. The narrator studies the paper in such depth that these traits start to blur her boundaries of reality and imagination, and she starts to see a woman behind the bars of the paper. Here we find another wonderful use of symbolism. The trapped woman in the wallpaper is in fact the narrator herself. Her desperate tearing and clawing at the paper is her attempt to free herself, from her marriage, her illness, her child, and possibly more.  
Perhaps one of the strongest occurrences of symbolism is the peeling of the wallpaper. As the wallpaper slowly peels off of the wall, the narrator’s sanity is also peeling away. Towards the end of the story it is revealed that the narrator has identified herself as the woman behind the wallpaper. The reader discovers this when the narrator wonders, “…if they [the other women she sees] have come out of the wall-paper as I did?” (Gilman 496). As the story comes to a close the readers stumble upon the truth; the narrator has been peeling the paper, chewing on the bed posts, and carving into the walls. This act of “freeing” the woman behind the wallpaper and destroying her prison of a room shows that the narrator has taken her life into her own hands.
Similar to the narrator’s decent into madness being depicted as the peeling wallpaper; her madness is also illustrated by her distain of anything other than the yellow room. She states that she no longer wishes to go outside, but that “it is so pleasant to be out in this great room and creep around as I please!” (Gilman 496). She refuses to go outside claiming that everything is too green and not yellow. This is symbolism of the decline of her mental state. She starts out wanting to go outside and meet people however this is repressed by her husband. As she stays shut up in her yellow room, she starts to spiral into hysteria and confusion.
As Gilman brings her story to a close, the narrator has convinced herself that because she pulled the wallpaper down, she is free and her husband can no longer keep her imprisoned in the room or the house. This occurrence, as well as the other uses of symbolism throughout the story, reveals the nature of how the narrator has slowly escaped her stifling marriage and relationship with John. The Yellow Wallpaper and its symbolism illustrate a successful commentary on the treatment of women in the 1890’s and how some, if not many, of those women took the situation into their own hands by whatever means possible. Using symbolism has allowed Charlotte Perkins Gilman to convey her message in a way that is both entertaining and educational, creating a wonderfully successful piece of writing.


Thursday, April 9, 2015

The Issue with Sexual Assault on College Campuses.

This is a pretty heavy topic compared to my other posts, however, I feel very strongly about this issue and I feel that the general populous needs to be educated on sexual assault and the issue that America has with it on its college campuses.

During this semester of university I participated in a class that covers topics such as morality and current issues. This post is for part of my final project.

So , what is sexual assault? According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary it is:

 Illegal sexual contact that usually involves force upon a person without consent or is inflicted upon a person who is incapable of giving consent. 

In an article written in The New York Times, Jenny Wilkinson writes about her experience with sexual assault during her college career. Most importantly, how there was no or very little consequences for her attacker. 

She stated in her opening paragraph, "At a closed hearing, the university's committee on sexual assault found him [her attacker] responsible. His punishment? A letter in his file." 

The only punishment this young man faced for attacking and sexual assaulting this young woman, was a letter in his school file, that essentially had no effect on his academic career. Wilkinson questions this compared to other issues on college campuses. "Compare this with the fates of the dozens of students, perhaps hundreds, who violated the school's honor code, which deals with lying, cheating, and stealing, during the same period. If you are found guilty of violating the honor code, there is only in sanction: expulsion." 

What is this telling the college going generation? It is not only encouraging such sexually abusive acts, but it is also telling the victims, that there is no support for them and that it is better to just stay quiet about the situation. It is telling those young minds that it is worse to cheat or lie than it is to sexually assault another human being. 

In many of these cases, the victims are often left in a worse position than before they reported their assault. In Wilkinson's case she "could have faced charges from the university if [she] had talked about [the proceedings of her case]." 

It has now been twenty years since Wilkinson's assault and students are still being assaulted at shocking rates. In Wilkinson's article, she lists several statistics about sexual assault and college campuses. "According to a study conducted for the Department of Justice in 2007, about one (1) in seven (7) undergraduate women is sexually assaulted during college. A report by the Bureau of Justice Statistics shows that nationally 35 percent of rapes and sexual assaults were reported to the police in 2010; on college campuses, this number drops to 5 percent." 

35 percent dropping to 5 percent is extremely alarming. Why is this happening? As Wilkinson's says, "I followed the rules, spoke up and fought for a place within both the criminal and university systems, but found no justice in either." The victims are afraid of the injustice in the systems and thus are not reporting their attacks.
 
"The White House Task Force to Protect Students from Sexual Assault released their first report in April 2014, leading with a chilling statistic: one in five college students experiences sexual assault during their college career."



(http://www.bestcolleges.com/resources/preventing-sexual-assault/)

In my family there are four daughters and our mother. Taking this statistic would mean that either me, one of my three younger sisters, or mother, would have been raped or sexually assaulted in some way.

The scary thing about rape and sexual assault is that many of the victims know their attacker.

"Approximately two out of three sexual assaults are committed by an attacker that the victim knows, according to the Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network (RAINN). About 38% of rape incidents are committed by a friend or acquaintance of the victim." 

 



While it is most common for the victims of sexually assault to be women, men are included in the studies as well. In fact, "about 10% of sexual assault incidents involve attacks against males, according to statistics provided by the Texas Association Against Sexual Assault."




(http://www.dailytexanonline.com/news/2013/11/03/sexual-assault-remains-under-reported-on-campus-despite-growing-awareness)




 As a young college going women I am faced with the possibility that I may be sexually assaulted. However, attending a Mormon University does not protect me from sexual assault. In an article written for Brigham Young University-Idaho's newspaper The Scroll, it talks about the many cases of sexual assault that go unreported at BYU-Idaho because the victims don't believe that they are that serious or that they are worried about ruining the attacker's life. A young women in the article (her name has been changed) stated, 

"Smith said she feels the reason that she did not report the incident before was because she was more naive. Now she said she realizes the importance of reporting these incidents, even if it was not rape, and hopes that other victims will realize the same thing."


Looking up these facts also brought up many articles on how to "avoid rape and sexual assault". Included in these articles are many self defense techniques and tips on how to behave at parties or other social functions. The real "how to avoid rape or sexual assault" should be, DO NOT DO IT. Respect your fellow human beings. As a feminist and human, I strongly believe that Colleges are moving in the right direction with their support groups and harsher punishments, however there are still many leaps and bounds that we should be accomplishing in regards to how we confront sexual assault.

If interested you can donate to this project to help stop sexual assault:
Public Integrity

NPR also has some very interesting radio shows discussing sexual assault. If you are interest here is the link to the archives of the shows regarding sexual assault. NPR Radio Show discusses Sexual Assault



Works used in this article:




http://byuiscroll.org/2015/02/27/byu-idaho-not-immune-to-sexual-assault/

http://www.dailytexanonline.com/news/2013/11/03/sexual-assault-remains-under-reported-on-campus-despite-growing-awareness 
 

http://www.nytimes.com/2015/04/05/opinion/sunday/sexually-assaulted-at-uva.html?ref=opinion